Amy Winehouse is dead. I found out just a little while ago, when I sat down in front of my computer. I read the headline on my homepage and it took my breath away. And then I cried a little. She wasn’t my friend. She wasn’t even my favorite artist (th0ugh her talent was unmistakable)…
To Thine Own Self Be True
I finally got my five-year chip this morning. After a hairy start to the day, my logic, the part of me that said I had a sink full of dishes, a calendar full of deadlines, a small window of time to clean and cook before the boys returned from summer school, took a backseat to…
Shut.Up.
He is wiggling in his seat and not the good kind of wiggle It’s the kind that let’s me know all hell is about to break loose “It’s okay baby,” I purr as we pull out of the driveway but his wiggles turn to whines and I turn to the deep breathing I…
5
I am sitting on the couch, curled up next to my husband Can you believe how fast it’s gone by? I ask him. He smiles, nods his head. Do you remember, when we sat here, exactly 5 years ago today? I ask him. His gaze focuses on something across the room. Sadness flickers in his…
On Darkness and Dread
I try to enjoy it, but I can’t. The boys are asleep, and so is my husband, and while I should be reveling in the silence, I feel instead like climbing out of my skin. These quiet evenings, the ones that have me staying up past everyone else’s bedtime, bring anxiety and a sense of…
Lumberjacks are people too
In an effort to keep from rolling myself into the fetal position and giving in to the voices inside my head, I’ve convinced an innocent woman new therapist to take me on as a patient. I found her through my network provider website, and picked her out of dozens of names because of her close proximity to my…
A Picture Worth the Pain it Brings
There is a photo that hangs in her bedroom tucked in a frame she bought when she still shopped at walmart It sits there against the calm of the forest green wall the color chosen by her husband a man willing to paint the walls hot pink if she so desires She walks by this photo…